OMG! not even touch my book for 1 week plus! last week since goh goh can canceled all his classess and bawang's class is fairly just sitting there and "hearing" her lectures, my brain has already in its holiday. not functioning at all. it's been 6 days i'm living without using my brain juice! so creepy man! suddenly realise that if someone ask me what's my name within that 6 days period, i guess i'll say "huh?", as in "what are you saying, i don't understand" kind of state. horrifically blur. perhaps i stay too long in my house? or my sleep patern completely changed so my brain shuts down? for these few days i really sleep on 7am. first starting to sleep on 5am, then 6am, just now, 8am. just can't sleep. my body still feel the energy to stay awake, but my mind keep on telling must sleep must sleep. can't do anything about it. i can't really say i indulge myself too much in this period but i did somehow. seriously, i only stick to the internet and television all the hours i'm awake. so, dear books, you're out! but deep inside my heart there's a voice constantly reminding me "study! study! exam! exam!". i just ignoring the voice. so now, the voice is kind of working, but i really feel very tired. even have no energy to take the book and open it. it's like i've been ill for months that kind of weakness .why? why? why give study break this sem! they usually don't give breaks! well, it's not persuasive enough, to myself. i mean, i know that i hope to have this kind of study break because i have the time. i was just being denial that i'm LAZY and AVOIDANT. *slap slap* yes, slap myself so i can wake up from wasting anymore time. a phrase is really suitable for me - fail to plan, plan to fail. yup, that's the correct word to describe the current me.
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