review on previous posts

oh my... been having blog for 4 years (more or less). got it under peer influence. still remember it was created on 29th feb. purposely open on that day. this year is going to celebrate 4th "birthday". haha. although it is really a sad thing that my first post till don't know which post suddenly got deleted by no reason (really don't know what happen all those posts suddenly disappeared), found that blogger did its job great. realized there were so many posts about myself. well, of course this is MY BLOG, it is about ME. but, this is like my emotional dump site. and realized a major shift over here. my earlier posts (including those disappeared) were much more positive. lately, most of the posts are either neutral or negative emotions. and it has lesser info about myself. since having facebook, never need to blog for every single thing. facebook is like daily mini blog. and much interactive than blog. can't blame myself for delay updates. only thought of blogging when don't feel like sharing in facebook. well, as i said, it is my dump site. and really appreciate for blogger's existence. from all the posts, could see that the colors are missing lately. not so recent but, lately. colors were added in in most of the posts last time. these days, merely decorate each post. perhaps it reflect that i'm not in good mood. still think that posts from the beginning are more lively, positive and showed effort. not to say later posts are effortless, just, simple and less description and minimal decoration. four years, many things had changed, better or worst. sometimes looking back to the past isn't that bad. maybe it can be said that for me, the function of blog had changed. not so mcuh about updating current activities, like journal/diaries, now it is more like stress/emotion release tool. not a bad thing. at least it is still taking a place in me.

***trying to not use the word "i" when typing and do not use emoticons. quit fun.***